"I'm happy in New York Jake! But then I come down here...and this fits too!" "Well who says you can't have roots AND wings?"
These are the wise word spoken on one of my all time favorite movies: Sweet Home Alabama! It's at the point where Reese is trying to decide whether she wants to stay with her new life in New York after going home to Alabama and realizing how much she loves it there too. Let's just say...I know exactly how she feels!
Since January I have had some extremely hard months. I've tried to decide if they fall into that "hardest of my life" category but for story sake let's just stick with plain difficult. At one point back in the end of February/end of March I was so ready to pack up and head out of this town and never look back. I suddenly wanted nothing to do with ANYBODY down here and wanted to erase everything that happened in those 3 months since being home. Things were done, words were said and feelings were hurt. It was then that I got this little idea "Well what if it's time to move somewhere else."
I went through so many options that I even considered going to Ukraine, back to China or possibly even a little adventure in Puerto Rico. All of these sounded AMAZING, exciting, new and just fun which is exactly what I wanted. But unfortunatly none of them felt even remotely right for me. "Life" got better and I stopped wishing my semester away and had a BLAST! I got to be really good friends with some new people and learned a lot about myself again. My Ukraine, China and Puerto Ricos dreams were put on a back burner as just fun thoughts but nothing serious.
Even though the city thoughts went away, I still wasn't able to shake the feeling that maybe it was time for somewhere new again. I begin to think of more logical, responsible ideas like Logan, Provo or maybe even California. Loooooooong story short I realized that it's time to go home for a little bit. I've missed out on A LOT of both family and friend things and that made me super sad the other night. My little brother is starting his mission papers and I don't want to miss out on his last few months here.
Soooooo Provo it is! It's going to be so weird to go back to being an official resident there again. I have no life in Provo outside of what it was in high school so I'm way pumped to see what this brings me! I can't wait to get to hang out with old friends again and definetly meet some new ones too.
If I could run the world.....everybody from Provo, St. George, China crew, Price and everybody else that meant something to me would all live in one big town together! That way I never missed anybody and had the people I love around me all the time instead of ALWAYS being away from somebody. Because I think that missing somebody is the worst feeling ever!
On to my last 3 weeks in Geezy. Yeah I bawled :) Definetly another adventure but also going to be a bittersweet one!
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